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If Not For You

ebook / ISBN-13: 9781408714546

Price: £16.99

ON SALE: 27th January 2022

Genre: Biography & True Stories / Memoirs

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‘If I were to look closely at the jagged edges of my fragmented heart, I’m sure I’d see that some spaces now shine with gold. And that is what he left for me.’

‘An extraordinarily brave, honest and tender book’ RACHEL CLARKE

‘Full of strength and hope’ KATE MOSSE

‘The most beautiful thing I have ever read’ TOM BRADBY


On the 17th November 2019, Grey Atticus Fox was born, nine weeks early, to Georgie and Mike in a Kent hospital.
Heart wrenching, cathartic, life-affirming, this is her account of the 21 days they had together, and its aftermath – the search to make sense of unimaginable loss. It bears witness to both the confusion and the clarity that accompany great pain, and stands as a testament to empathy, care and humanity when life is at its hardest.

‘He was looked after by strangers who became family, and he saw more kindness, more love, in twenty-one days than some might see in a lifetime. For his brief moments in this world, he experienced all of the very best things it can offer.’

Georgie’s spare, intimate and at times surprisingly comic writing offers an extraordinary message of hope. If Not For You is about the redeeming power of love, even in our darkest hour.


‘Profoundly moving’ TIMES2

A testimony to empathy, care and humanity when life is at its hardest’ STYLIST

‘I cannot stop thinking about it’ LUCY FOLEY

‘An unflinching and beautiful book’ SOPHIE KINSELLA

‘Georgie Lucas writes superbly’ MIRIAM STOPPARD


Harrowing. . . If anyone is going through this trauma in the current socially distanced hospitals, this book will be in lieu of all those hugs. A message from one mother to another, reminding them they are not alone.
The Mail on Sunday
It is heartbreaking and beautiful
Sophie Ellis Bextor
Georgie Lucas writes superbly with her spare, and unsentimental prose.
Miriam Stoppard
[Lucas's] valuable story is important not just for its own sake; it could help us to speak more, and better, about an unfathomable experience that too many parents endure
I have spent the evening reading (and, yes, God, tissues ...) It is heart breaking, beautiful, important, full of integrity, powerful and honest, inspiring & full of the wonder of women and love ... In bits ... but also, full of admiration. Georgina is a wonderful writer, clear & honest, but never sentimental, and she lets all the other people going through this terrible time with her shine as well. It's also full of strength and hope, and I've no doubt will both help many and also give comfort to other mothers & fathers who have lost a child.
Kate Mosse, bestselling author of Labyrinth and The Burning Chambers
[If Not For You] might be one of the most beautiful and inspiring things you'll read. Tender, heart-breaking and astonishingly eloquent, its pages flow with love, hope and sometimes even laughter.
Evening Standard Magazine
This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read; a heart-breaking account of a tragic death that is also a profound, lyrical, sometimes funny and ultimately joyful meditation on the meaning of life. The book of the year, perhaps the decade.
Tom Bradby
In this brave, unflinching book Lucas looks back with love and hope at the 21 days of life granted to her baby son, who was born nine weeks premature
The i
Wow. That has been a heart-wrenching few hours' reading - difficult to read with streaming eyes! It's an incredibly sad but in some ways, also a truly beautiful story. It is heart-breaking in the sense of loss and tragedy, but also uplifting in the way the love sings from each page. Really quite extraordinary.
John Nichol, bestselling author of Spitfire and Lancaster
An extraordinary read. This tender, exquisite memoir explores devastating loss and grief, yes, but most of all it is a book about the surpassing, redemptive power of love. I cannot stop thinking about it.
Lucy Foley, bestselling author of The Hunting Party and The Guest List
I just finished Georgie's book, and am completely shattered by the searing grief and pain which she was able to convey to me, the reader. Beautifully written, it was hard enough to relive with you all the days leading up to Grey's death, then the gorgeously cathartic family funeral lulls one into feeling somewhat healed. Only to be completely shattered by the almost unbearable piercing pain and grief of their loss, so well expressed that I am totally in awe of the way that you and Mindy and all the family went through this pain together, and found beauty and profound gifts to take away. Well done Georgie, I think it will bring solace and help to anyone going through this and give them a primer on how to be present and honest with themselves and those who love them. Because this honesty becomes a gift.
Dr Rita Lynn
Profoundly moving
The Times
This quietly devastating account of birth, pain and loss is gripping. As I read, I was lost in the quiet, tense atmosphere of Grey's story. Georgina Lucas portrays the world of the NICU in minute, often poetic detail, finding warmth and humour when life seems bleakest. It is an unflinching and beautiful book, ending on a note of light and love in a way that should inspire us all.
Sophie Kinsella, bestselling author of Can You Keep a Secret and the Shopaholic series
Extraordinary...earth-shattering... so full of love
Anita Rani, Woman’s Hour
[A] heart-wrenching and hopeful book . . . about the redeeming power of love . . . A meditation on the meaning of life
Sunday Post
I finished reading this yesterday in a welter of emotions and not a few tears. I think that this is an amazing story, delicately but powerfully told. Georgina's observations of people, places and events ring so true - they are so often searingly accurate and also so wonderfully compassionate. Despite what could be an inexorably sad story I'm interested that the words I wrote down as I read it are all positive: optimism / hope / strength / power / love. It is my firm belief that immortality is being remembered by those who loved us and Greyman undoubtedly will continue to be remembered and celebrated.
Dr Richard Shepherd, bestselling author of Unnatural Causes
Beautifully written, searingly honest and profoundly uplifting, this is a book to remind us what is most important in life; a book for anyone who has suffered a loss, or ever will. In short, it is a book for everyone.
Katherine Webb, bestselling author of The Legacy